I felt him

Today is our first Valentine's day apart. Yesterday I received a little package in the mail from my honey. The customs form on top said that it contained "clothes" and a "letter". I thought to myself, "oh, my honey bought me a shirt. He knows how much I like clothes". I anxiously opened the package and was a little confused at what I saw. It was clear that there was a card in there but I also opened a zip-loc bag to find clothes but it wasn't a shirt purchased for me. Instead it was something even better. You see, that ziploc contained clothes that belonged to my honey. Not just that, but clothes that he wore. Clothes that touched his skin. Clothes that touched his skin that same skin that I haven't been able to touch in almost 6 months. I needed this but I decided to wait until the time was right. So, this morning started out good, then I could feel myself losing patience and wishing that my man was home with us. So, I decided that this was the time. I got the boys settled with a movie, put Addy down for a nap and then headed to our bedroom. I turned the radio on and made my way to the zip-loc bag. I opened it and pulled out HIS clothes. First, I clenched them as close as I could to my chest. Then, I climbed into bed still cleching them and not wanting to let go. That's when the thought really, really hit me that my honey's skin really touched this, he wore this and I desperately wanted to feel that close to him. I got out of bed to put on his clothes. But before that I just smelt them and then I pulled the armpit area to my nose and THERE HE WAS!! I am soo thankful that he decided to wear deodorant but even if not I wouldn't have cared. I smelt my honey. It was a sweet and familiar smell and I don't want it to leave. After I savored his smell, I put the clothes on and got back into bed and held him close to me. It was like he was right there with me and holding me too. I rubbed my arm and I could feel his big, sexy muscles. I let myself go. I let myself cry. I prayed for him. I prayed that God would keep him safe and that he would watch over him with every single step that he takes. I prayed that God would use him. I prayed that he would know how much I love him. I prayed that God would bring him home safe and sound and SOON!!!

Thank you, my honey, for giving me the perfect gift....YOU!!!